Saturday, February 12, 2022

Animal Crackers - Hardest Post - A Piece of my Heart

Howdy - 

This post is going to be one of the hardest ever.... already bawling and I haven't even started it yet. This week I lost a piece of my heart. Our boy Autie passed away. I knew it was going to be hard. We knew the day was coming at some point, but I wasn't ready, I never would be ready that was for sure.

I love all my fur babies. But honestly Autie was special. He is my baby. My shadow. He was always at my side. Cooking dinner at my feet. At my desk he was under my chair. Sleeping at night he was on my feet or right at my side. When I didn't feel well or was sad, he was right there to comfort me, he loved to cuddle.

It has been a days now and I am still waking up at night in panic because he isn't there. Found myself stepping around his spot in the kitchen, and rolling my desk chair out and around because I don't want to roll on him... but he isn't there.

Going back through photographs was really tough. I had forgot how little 

and skinny he was as a puppy. And never really realized how much Chica actually looks like him -

How he and Libbie were so adorable and played together. 

He was always the best puppy sitter, and loved baby anything.  Just over a week ago he was playing with the kittens and letting them run and climb all over him.
He really is a piece of my heart - the best dog ever. 
It is going to take a long time before thinking of him, seeing a photo of him will not bring tears to my eyes. 

My Buddie, My Shadow, My heart - I love you Autie - There will never be another like you.

Hugs -


Anonymous said...

So sorry for the loss of your beautiful boy Autie.
I lost my 16 year old maltese/poodle in November.
Pepa was my whole life and this year has been awful without her.
I see her everywhere and am Kwan’s calling her name,
It’s so hard to lose them.

Martina said...

Dear Michelle,
I am so sorry to read about your sweet Autie and that he has gone over the rainbowbridge. I can understand you still miss him so much! I often think of our Sandy we already lost 2009. And I am afraid of the day our lovely Mika (cat) will leave me. She is nearly 18 now and I know her days are numbered.
Sending you big hugs from Austria!

Peggy S from OH said...

Very, very, sorry for your huge loss. I understand your immense pain and feel for you. It's been many years since I lost my little "Mr Muggs" and I still find myself looking so I don't step on him at times. They give us their hearts and they take a piece of ours when they leave. Keeping you in my thoughts at this time.

Becky Lombardo said...

Oh Moe, I am so sorry for your loss. I remember the day you adopted him and brought him home. I remember the story behind His and Libbie’s name. Pups are truly a Godsend and you are blessed to have so many wonderful years of memories to cherish. Love you bunches!!

Marilyn said...

Michelle, I am so sorry about Autie. It's so hard to let them go but take comfort in knowing he had a wonderful, full and happy life... if you have to be a dog, you want to be lucky enough to be Michelle's dog.

Cheri Burry said...

Oh Michelle I am so sorry to hear of your loss! These pets of our become like our children and give us so much love! Just know that you gave Autie the most amazing life a dog could have and he loved you for it! Sending big hugs your way!

Carol Dee said...

Michelle, Sending big hugs and lots of love for you, hubby and other fur babies. I am sure all will miss Mr. Autie. But you will miss your Shadow the most. He was so Lucky to be yours.

okienurse said...

Sorry to hear of Auties passing. I feel the same way about my fur babies and know it won't be easy for me. Give a little more love to the kitties and tell them Autie stories...hopefully that will help a little. It will be hard these first few weeks...he was your shadow!

~* Jay Jay *~ said...

Oh nooo, I'm so sorry to read this. Big big hugs my dear! I believe it must be a really hard time because a dog is your "child" who is sharing everything, even the bed with you. Luckily there still are your other fur babies and of course your husband who hopefully can help you through this sad time. ♥♥♥